i am thankful for:
1. the random and always unwelcome but more than appreciated bursts of challenges in my recent week. yes. i appreciate these challenges, because they open my eyes. and another thing, they really aren't so bad.
2. love. i think it is so beautiful and so powerful and literally breath taking. when it is right, and perfect and matched equally.
3. dates. i really don't go on very many actual, literal, dates, because i generally just get into a relationship, and most the time the real dates stop, but i am always so excited to go on a date, and i'm thankful i get those chances.
4. my photography! i have had such a great response lately, and i'm booking small and big jobs left and right! it's really taking off and it's bringing the utmost joy into my heart.
5. the book drive! i haven't done it yet, and i'm nervous as all get out, but i am pretty confident it will be a good thing, and it will be populated and we'll raise a good amount of money for The Dove Center. such a perfect cause.
6. the gym. i've been quite the gym-goer this week. and i'm LOVING it. i hope it becomes an addiction. i know those are bad, generally. i mean pretty much always, but i think it'll be good for me. i'll know when to stop.
7. christmas music at work! thank goodness for it!
8. confusion. because once everything is figured out, clarity is one of the best feelings in the world. methinks.
9. people who go with their heart and not always their mind! mostly when someone FEELS that something isn't right, i think that is good. it's not always logical to me. but if they sincerely feel it, then they are sincere. do i trust too easily?
10. the moment today where i sort of let loose on one of the salesmen, about being RUDE all the time to EVERYONE. he hasn't been today. and everything he's said to me has been ok. so i hope it lasts. for reals.
12. learning moments. breaking up and making up to break up. i am not targeting one situation here, but many. i am thankful for all that i have learned in past situations. in past moments. they help me with my present time. and my future time. and my lifetime.
13. tilt. i'm pretty sure he deserves his own section in my thankful list today. he's really brought so much golden sunshine to my sour soul this week. i love him! i am thankful for him! and i think he's quite a gem.
14. the gospel. i've been off and on back and forth with my religious habits. but my heart and soul knows the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is true and right and it's sincerely the only constant in my life. the absolutely only thing i can rely on 100%. and that feels good.
15. whitter! i love love love her! sincerely, i've sort of been blessed lately to have her around more, just in the chatty available sense. she's amazing and beautiful and i am so thankful for her friendship.
16. the new guy at work. firstly he's nice and definitely not bad looking, but secondly, he's going to help me with my photography. because he know's people. i'm not kidding. now i just need a portfolio and some monies to print images. it's going to be SO great.
17. that i do not live in L.A. I hear so many stories from some of the guys here at work about the things they've been through, just living in that city, I will never ever ever live there.
18. kolby. yeah, i've learned a lot from being with him, i think, and he's still a gem, and i still don't have anything bad to say about him. he's real. and kind. (oh and he gave me the coolest Christmas present ever. pretty much, so i'm thankful for that TOO.)
19. college, NEXT semester. it will really be good. i'm convinced.
20. stephie. holy cow! it's been so long since i've hung out with her, and today we got to go to lunch. and it was exactly what i needed. a reminder that she's my friend, and she's there for me, always. i love her and i'm more than thankful for her.
21. the countless blessings sent my way regarding photography. i know i already mentioned that above a couple of times, but i am calculating it all in my head, and man alive, i've been blessed so graciously! sincerely, they LITERALLY keep pouring in.
22. my job! i can't even tell you how thankful i am to have a job. but i do. and its mine and i won't complain and i wont whine and i won't wish i were somewhere else. because, i'm getting paid for this. hourly. i am getting paid. money. you know? i'm thankful.
23. my flat iron. chi. it's magic. and i love it. enough said.
24. my home. i know i refer to it as the ghetto. because well, i've seen better, but i am thankful i have somewhere to live. with a/c and heat. with appliances. with a toilet. with a cloud bed. i am thankful for my home. and my orange walled bedroom.
25. my sister. i love her so much. our relationship isn't always the absolute best. but i always know she's my sister and she loves me. even if she doesn't always LIKE what i'm doing. or who i am. i know she'll be there for me when i need her, even when i don't. and even though sometimes i act annoyed when she's dancing in my room. i'm really not. i'm just jealous that i don't have her mooooooves. she does so much for me all of the time. she's pretty much my mother. and i probably shouldn't let her be. because i have a mom. also. i'm 22. and i don't need some one to mom me around. she cooks and cleans for me. really. i should be better.
26. respect. i have it for you. and i surely appreciate it when you have it for me.
27. kreesta! she has been helpful on many occasions and i am thankful for that. she's also a superb friend and a great sister. i love her and it's her birthday tomorrow. not that those things are related necessarily. but it just is. she's beautiful.
28. new tunes! i love getting new music. it's such a great great thing. i love having friends who have good taste in music too! and they can share what they know with me!
29. the interweb on my computer (at home) it's been a few good months. like five. and i'm thankful it's back! yay! it is really so helpful, especially with photography and such to exploit. bad word choice, but you'll get over it.
30. the song called "maybe so maybe no" by mayer hawthorne. whitney introduced it to me. and i think it is pretty fetchin'.
31. my late night discoveries. oh endless possibilities.
32. my dire desire to pen in my journal until morning time. fill pages full of time left unsaid. because if i don't say it now it will never be read.